My guesstimate is that I found this gem in my collection around February and iTunes says I’ve listened to it 110 times so far–plus I got the VSQ rendition (love!). I find that the world reaches out to me with songs at just the right moment…or maybe I go searching when I don’t already have one in my arsenal for a particular feels. Either way, “Unravel” by Bjork snuck it’s way into my life some months ago right at the nexus of re-establishing relationships with my estranged ex-lover and my ex-BFFF. There is an anticipation of being able to share everything that has been missed in the meantime. And yet, I cannot begin to comprehend how to share the journey of losing my Grandmother or moving across the country in a giant U-haul with a car trailer or the pain of finally letting my disappointing relationship with my father simmer out. How do you navigate these lost spaces that would have been shared moment-by-moment? How do you reconnect without dwelling on the bitterness of the past?
Bjork’s lyrics never cease to elude my understanding…why does your heart come undone in a ball of yarn? Were you crocheting through the pain?? As with many other artists (Tool, Radiohead, The Beatles acid years…) my sad little bitter heart still finds a way to completely identify. The somber synthy organ of wedding march-esque material in the background really seals the deal. Get a pint of Ben & Jerry’s and cry into it while repeating “Weee’ll haaaave to make new loooooove.”